Monthly Archives: September 2009

secretary

It is raining in Portland…the beginning of “the rain.”  The rain that will last until May.  I am not ready for it yet…I want to have a summer redo…one where I go hiking and find a lonely spot on the river to spend the day.  It wasn’t a bad summer, it just wasn’t an easy […]

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realization….a haiku

same old, same old shit common denominator? oh..that would be me

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Autumn

September has quietly stepped in like a late congregant summer passed this year with little notice; the emotion of it never once being fully realized too much heaviness too much grey it is a relief almost that I can no longer be disappointed by the lack of what might have been There is hope in […]

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Letting Go

to let go…to allow to leave..to release…free from attachment Some things are easier to let go of than others. Depression is not one of them. It is an anchor, chained to me. The more I struggle to free myself, the more exhausted I become. I have let myself fall into it deeply, hoping it will […]

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One More Time

New day. Yesterday I arrived home after more than a week away. My beautiful dog was so happy to see me, and I just as equally happy to see her. We have already settled into our comfortable routine. I went through the mail very quickly last night. Mostly bills…but also a reminder to schedule my […]

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there are things that I tell no one

There are things I tell no one.. they haunt me in my sleep and find me in the morning raw and alone Most nights my dreams are more real than my days and I awake rest less and fragile having battled what I cannot face in daylight today my body is a shadow and my […]

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a new way of being

I have been away from home now for nine days. It’s funny how when I’m away from all “my stuff” I realize how truly little I need to be content. I have been reading a good book, I talked and/or texted with my children several times, I even have gone running five days in a […]

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This

“All the lives I could ever live, all the people I will never know, never will be, they are everywhere. That is all that the world is.” Aleksandar Hemon Spending the day in an easy rhythm moving between the kitchen and the bedroom…cooking and napping. I did take some time outside to read in the […]

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