truth, nature, knowledge
I’ve needed some illumination these past few days. I’ve fallen into a retrievable funk…much better than those dreaded irretrievable ones. I can get myself worked up into a panicked state with little effort and this morning I went to my yoga mat to ground myself and return a sense of stability I have seemed to have misplaced.
What I need is information. What I have failed to do is procure that information. Fear has paralyzed me, knowledge will set me free. Sometimes I place a value on knowledge..good news vs bad news. More often than not though, the news is just news…information. Judgement placed on information creates drama, at least for me.
What I reminded myself on the mat this morning, is that information can be helpful. Understanding the truth about a situation/perceived problem can only aid in the response/resolution of that situation.
So what has me troubled? Money…shocking, I know. But today, I resolve to really understand my financial situation so that I can control my finances and have them work for me. For too long I’ve wanted to create financial independence for myself. In order to do that, I really need to know what my expenses really are, and how much money I need to make. Seems reasonable. I guess I’ve been afraid that I will learn that I can’t support myself. I won’t won’t the reality of that until I take a good look…