Monthly Archives: August 2010

falling into place

There are moments in life when everything seems to fall into place.  If you are lucky, you know it as it happening and it becomes all the sweeter. There are also those moments when nothing seems to go your way at all.  And the knowing of this seems only to increase the momentum of misfortune. […]

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a few words about self care

I took the day off yesterday.  I wasn’t scheduled to work and instead of filling up my day with chores and even adventure, I took a break.  Save for watering the lawn, which required me only to move the sprinkler around the yard, and two walks to the dog park, which I most enjoy, I […]

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yoga

Thank God for yoga, truly.  Thank you to all those yogis before me who practiced and shared and showed the way out of the weight of the mind. I have been feeling very heavy these days, full of anxiety as well.  For the last week I have felt an oppressive anxiety, uncharacteristic anxiety.  Tonight at […]

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the land before my mind

I want to return to the time before my mind believed anything to be true and live there again just long enough to realize the absurdity of  what my mind believes now Once, long long ago, I remember that place, “the land before my mind.”  I prayed each night that I might be allowed to […]

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rest doesn’t come easy

i have woken up the last two days still tired and while I can sleep in i do not or cannot and so I move in dreamstate halfway in and halfway out of awakeness today my heart beats quick and unsteady as if as if last night Luka raced inside, tail between her legs barking […]

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“Real Peace is Unshakeable”

The words of Yogi Bhajan resonated as I sat in meditation this evening. Real peace is unshakeable. Real peace is uneffected..unaffected..it is simply  our original state of being, before the mind believed anything at all to be true.

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Figure Drawing

I am taking a 4 week summer school course in figure drawing.  My teacher is old school.  We draw for four hours straight,  save for 2 ten minute break. Yesterday we only had one break.  Time seemed to creep by and then fly forward . The class leaves me exhausted, mentally and physically. This morning, […]

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what is real is in question

my time alone is comforting and easy and sometimes lonely but alone I can hear my thoughts above all others even when I don’t particularly want to and most importantly when I do today my voice says “what is real and where are you in this?” today there is no answer only weariness. what is […]

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hummingbird lost

I saw him in my garden suspended above the slender orange blossoms so perfect and impossibly quick only it wasn’t enough or perhaps I felt it unfair that I alone should see him so I retreated, dashing inside to grab my camera on my return, I discovered he had gone I have wondered what it […]

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