this is what it is to make art
so much time before
so much thought, little of it creative
so much of it pushing and tearing apart
the mind is the artist’s bully
the constant tormentor
full of reasons why not
ready to say ‘pack it up and settle’
or ‘it could be easier’
and then we ponder
what is easy
rita said ‘to make art is scary, you should prepare yourself for that’
no lesson plans for fear
only time and time
and more time