rough days

the only way out is through…

polar bear

oil on canvas 24″x28

wise guys


oil on canvas 30″x10″


a poem from 2008

I raced desperately around the globe
snatching trinkets
like a pirate
to still them on my mantle
merely empty relics 
I walked with blindfold
on the arm of a man I just met
and discovered
I had longed for
was below my still feet

the center of my head

in the center of my head
is a deep teal velvet chair
with a bright embroidered pillow
hand stitched by a grandmother spider
and to the left
a small round topped table
at just the right height
for a cup of tea to rest easily
within reach
sits on the floor
My beautiful Luka
curls at my feet on a braided wool rug
and the best of Patti Griffin plays
softly in the background
from the center of my head
as I sit
I can look out the window to my world
from here I am as
I was birthed to be
strong and capable
kind and even
and full of that
and abundant 
and everything is
easy and


change your thoughts and you change your destiny

The Lord’s Prayer

translated directly from Aramaic

O Cosmic Birther of all Radiance and Vibration.
Soften the ground of our being and carve out a
space within us where your Presence can abide.
Fill us with your creativity so that we may be
empowered to bear the fruit of your mission.
Let each of our actions bear fruit in accordance with our desire.
Endow us with the wisdom to produce and share
what each being needs to grow and flourish.
Untie the tangled threads of destiny that bind us, as we release
others from the entanglement of past mistakes.
Do not let us be seduced by that which would
divert us from our true purpose,
but illuminate the opportunities of the present moment.
For you are the ground and the fruitful vision,
the birth, power and fulfillment,
as all is gathered and made whole once again.

owl love

I finally made it back into my studio. Too much time has passed…too much work leaving me little time and even less energy to paint.

oil on canvas


one of those days


This is my first passport photo, circa 1968…I was having a rough day.

I’m having a rough day today as well, I feel today like I did then. Here’s my top 10 list of things that have made my week miserable so far…and it’s only Monday.

1. I’ve made 3 separate phone calls to 911 in a 2 day period. (none of which involved me personally having an emergency, just me personally witnessing an emergency that required a 911 call)

2. I offended someone via an email, unintentionally.

3. The person in #2 above is pissed.

4. Despite my apology, the person in #2 and #3 is now sending passive aggressive emails directed at me.

5. My injured shoulder is at its worst.

6. I have no days off this week between my two jobs.

7. My air conditioning is broken…which means 1. no air conditioning in a very hot West facing apartment…2..$$$ to fix it.

8. I’m missing my grown children terribly much…my son’s birthday is this month, which just makes me sad that I won’t spend it with him.

9. The new, high anticipated, dog park just opened…and to be honest, it really sucks…it’s hot, there’s no water for the dogs, it’s very tiny, our ball rolled under the fence 3 times because it’s just poorly designed. Incidentally, I’m not the only one that says it was designed by someone who obviously doesn’t own a dog.

10. It’s only Monday…


Things that didn’t make the list..getting yelled at by two parents of kids I serve, my stomach issues flaring up, missing my husband as we work opposite schedules and never have a day off together, …I should stop…