a more beautiful day could not have presented itself
Two parts of genuine acceptance..clearly seeing and holding our experience with compassion..
More wisdom from Tara Brach. Below is a view from our little deck on the beach. It’s been a beautiful day at the beach.
When we get lost in our stories,we lose touch with our actual experience
Currently I’m reading Radical Acceptance Embracing your life with the heart of a Buddha. I’ve read books like this before,many of them in fact, but right now my heart is open and I’m resonating with Brach’s writing in a way I haven’t in the books I’ve read before. Perhaps I’ve been preparing myself for this book all along.
I’ve been exhausted and sick lately. For too long really. Work has been exceptionally stressful. The treatment center I work at just opened a detox wing and I was asked to join the team there. Working with recovering addicts is difficult, working with detoxing addicts is even more so. Additionally, the department is so new and everything is at a trial and error stage…it’s been exhausting and frustrating. I miss the group the people I worked with before; I miss the connection to the residential floor and the clients there. It’s been hard.
Last night I talked with my daughter as she drove to a friends house (she was on speaker phone). It’s a long drive as she lives in the middle of a prairie in Colorado, making it far from everywhere. She told me me work stories and recipes, talked to me about her dog, and how school was and how stressful it all seemed right now. She has it under control though. She’s got friends and a mantra that says “it’s only going to be like this for 3 1/2 more months.” I told her about my painting and how much I loved the socks she gave me for Christmas. ( I LOVE those socks!! Smart Wools, super warm, super cute, super comfortable)
So much joy to be found in that in talk. So much to be grateful for.
Today my husband and I are going to the coast for the weekend. It’s the first time (except for our week in New England) since March we’ve had a weekend off together. My work schedule doesn’t seem like it will ever change ( I work Friday-Tuesday, so that means I work every weekend ), so instead of waiting for it to change and feeling resentful about it not changing, I’ve decided to be proactive. I took PTO, I made it happen.
Sometimes I get caught up in what’s not going well in my well that I forget to remember that I have the power of choice and can make changes.
Three gratitudes today
1. a good nap
2. a healthy dinner
3. having art money to buy books
I had to take Max today to a doctor’s appointment. I had Fly Boys with me. I read slowly. Sometimes I rush as I read, but I was determined to read with deliberate attention. I am not sure why I feel an urgency when I get a book. It’s exciting to start a new book, but I need to slow down, savor what I read. Today I did. It was lovely. Paying attention makes all the difference.
A walk taken with mindfulness is so different from a walk that is rushed. Doing yoga focusing on my body and breathe rather than the time changes every thing. Today I was mindful of mindfulness. 🙂
oil on canvas 11″x14″
a commissioned piece..I live this cat!
working on a commissioned piece today.
I feel like a legitimate working artist right now, despite the fact that I have another full time job. Someone is coming buy to pick up a commissioned piece; I’m working on this piece right now, and I’ve got 2 others in the beginning stages of commissioned work.
oil on canvas 16″x20″
I was feeling especially low today; the lack of sun, over working, little sleep, deadlines..oh my!
she cheered me up.. hope it cheers up others too
oil on canvas 14″x18″
this was a commissioned piece… he’s so cute!