I talked to a friend of mine this morning
we agreed that there is no middle place
just as there is no
“real world”
what there is
is a reprieve from suffering
I found that this morning
amidst the dirty dishes
and the guilt of leaving Luka
home alone all day
I found it
despite my runny nose
and upset stomach
and lack of a single pair of clean pants
that fit me this morning
I found it as I crossed
the Morrison Bridge
and described the yet again grey sky
to my friend so far away
I am never sure what it is that brings
this pause
this easy breathe
away from ego
I only know that I cannot chase it
I can only
recognize and be in it
when I arrive
amen