i have woken up the last two days
still tired
and while I can sleep in
i do not
or cannot
and so I move
in dreamstate
halfway in
and halfway out
of awakeness
today my heart beats quick
and unsteady
as if
as if
last night Luka raced inside, tail between her legs
barking at the dark
this brought me no comfort
“you’re the brave one,” I told her
but sometimes even the dogs are afraid
today i wait for night come
and work to end
so i may slip back into the comfort
of my sheets and down
and try again
to find that rest