Crow pose, maybe my new favorite piece
Crow pose, maybe my new favorite piece
in no particular order…
1. got married 🙂
in our church and had a lovely reception at the Podkrepa
2. graduated college
3. went to Washington DC
4. went wine tasting in a school bus
5. visited Crater Lake
6. had a painting get accepted into a show
7. went to the coast for Valentine’s
8. took many many, walks with my beloved around the city; some of them very long walks..
9. went on the tram by OHSU
10. threw a great dinner party in our living room
11. watched fire works from the City Grill
12. went to San Francisco and visited family
13. saw those cool jelly fish at the Monterey Bay Aquarium
14. taught yoga
15. learned how to screen print
16. went to Livingroom Theater many times and saw many movies
17. saw the Christmas lights at Peacock Lane
18. spun wool
19. knitted a shrug
20. went to the lovely 50th Anniversary party of Bob and Sylvia and danced with my husband
21. Autumn Supper at the Andersons
22. had mimosas at brunch at Jake’s
23. in fact..I’ve enjoyed many of Portland’s eateries..
24. run with Luka
26. I’ve painted
27. and made books
28. made lovely dinners for my husband
29. went to a U of O football game
30. watched my step son play high school football
31. went to many art shows
32. celebrated Emily’s birthday in her backyard
33. rode my bike to work
34. helped decorate my church for Christmas and hung out afterwards
35. hosted an adult Formation mtg at my house
36. ate soup with good people at Tamara’s house
37. planted kiwi
38. had my house painted
39 …and my oil tank decommissioned
40. cleaned out my closets
41. made mulled wine
42. read a book, finally!! in fact I read several
43. recovered cpb’s iPhone from a homeless man
44. hosted Thanksgiving dinner
45. played bocce at the Trunz’s
46. and enjoyed fondue at their house too
47. went to two parties at Roxanne’s and Johnny’s
48. played trivia..and even won a few times
49. took many baths
50. went to a BBQ at Mike B’s
51. grew vegetables in my garden..and ate them
52. ate homemade icecream..cpb made it
53. rode on the scooter with cpb all over town
54. ordered pizza at a tiny airport on the Oregon coast
55. spent time with my grown children
56. bought a camera took many photographs
………57. published my 400th post on wordpress
“When the heart is full, tongue is silent; when the mind is still, intuition functions; when the passions are quelled, devotion dawns; when the senses are controlled, soul force is obtained; when the intellect is silent God speaks; when the ‘I’ dies, ‘He’ shines as Radiant Reality”
I don’t know how it started. Perhaps I just woke up to it. I am not who would say that some days are inherently bad. That is, until yesterday. To be fair, once I found myself having the worst day ever, I did nothing to get myself out of. If anything, my perceptions became so skewed that even a golden unicorn dancing over a rainbow would have been seen as evil mayhem.
At eleven o’clock I found myself riding the bus to school, reasonless tears in my eyes. Some days just overwhelm me. I wanted to be home but summer school affords no off days. I was counting the hours until home was a reality, but Wednesday nights I teach yoga, which meant the wait would be extended.
I contemplated cancelling class. But I couldn’t. It was too last minute and too self indulgent, and unprofessional. Sometimes you have to suck it up and do your job. I am certain I didn’t lead the best yoga class ever…but I showed up and did the best I could. And at the end of the day, that’s all we can do.
Along our walk, a moment.
Thank God for yoga, truly. Thank you to all those yogis before me who practiced and shared and showed the way out of the weight of the mind.
I have been feeling very heavy these days, full of anxiety as well. For the last week I have felt an oppressive anxiety, uncharacteristic anxiety. Tonight at dinner, a friend pointed out that it was likely work. Why I didn’t figure this out sooner is pretty amazing. I guess because I love my job, I didn’t think of it as stressful. But, it is.
I have to say, I only feel relief. A lightbulb moment. And some insight into a cure for me..yoga. Everyday. I am lucky.
The words of Yogi Bhajan resonated as I sat in meditation this evening. Real peace is unshakeable.
Real peace is uneffected..unaffected..it is simply our original state of being, before the mind believed anything at all to be true.